It's been a couple of weeks since I've entered anything here. I've started a couple of times and just not been able to finish really. Things have been happening in my life, but nothing that has really inspired me like I wish it could.
I would love to write witty and poignant things about how I feel about the state of the world. About my utter loathing at the idea of "Sarah the Barracuda" as VP. About the drama and disaster that is my family as of late. But alas, nothing really comes of it when I start writing about these things.
I was told the other day that my energy was blocked. Something about my heart chakra being closed off. There is something there, some sadness that is just shutting everything down. And if I really think about it, I can tell you exactly what it is, but I probably won't. I'm not really saying this to get sympathy or anything. And I don't want to worry anyone. I am really okay, or will be eventually. There are just things that are weighing on me that it is going to take me time to work through. Things I miss. People I miss.
Maybe this is what I needed to start on that road to getting past it all, just to admit to myself something was wrong, and put it out there for other people to read. And if you do read it, I'm sorry for being such an utter and complete bitch as of late. Too often, when I don't know how to deal or ask for help, I lash out and go into a defensive mode. So, again, I'm sorry, that's not the person I want to be.
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Who read your Chakra?
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